They don’t weep no more.

24 01 2009

My older cousin flew in for the funeral. We play it cordial but I don’t speak that language. I try. I might do a better job if they taught it in school but I doubt they will in the next trillion years. I have another cousin, the same age as me, he speaks that language fluently. I listened to the conversation chiming in when necessary and from their conversation I wrote this poem. Actually I won’t take credit for it. It wrote it self. True facts, because I never talk like this. Either way I liked it enough to share.

 

 

They don’t weep no more.

Say tears won’t come like they use too.

Cause a man can’t cry

When another man die

And they don’t weep no more.

 

They don’t juice and gin

Rainfall to the ground no more.

Times got hard

Sips to precious

Lips need to be numb

Cause they don’t weep no more.

Just smoke clouds and niggas spit.

But they don’t weep no more.

 

They don’t love they daddies

Cause he left before age 3

So they don’t miss him no more

Never seen they daddies cry

They don’t know real men shed tears

Like grief and regrets.

Wish they could weep.

Let go some of they angry hearts.

Let go self-hatred

Fear of greatness.

 

But they don’t weep no more.

Leave it for they

Mama’s

Sister’s

Auntie’s

They weep for them

Grow them

Strong

And black

Dream them necessary

Still they don’t weep no more.

 

Don’t know no direction

Cept down.

Can’t walk tall

If they can’t cry in the dark.

And who gon’ teach them.

 

A real man cry

And be angry

Learn to ask why.

Till these brown boys do

They won’t weep.

Then they can’t grow.

 

Until they say No More.

 

 

 

baking powder and inspiration,

 

KD





I have a confession…or 3

24 01 2009

I can bake my ass off.

Cakes

I spent the past 2 or 3 hours in the kitchen baking them. Its for the funeral that I refuse to go to. I figured this is me doing my part, baking for the repass.

I have another confession…

 

I like Baltimore club music.

I’ve been jamming hard since I finished cleaning up the cake mix.

I’m gonna try and do the mixpod thing one more time. If I can’t get it this time then fuck it.

I wrote a poem too. I’ll post it separate. I think its pretty decent. Nothing award winning. Its just one of those times when I get an idea in my head and I actually take the time to sit down and write it out.

Fuck yo’ couch,

KD





Let the Wind Court You.

3 03 2008

Scream at it

Tell it to leave

And you don’t need it

Like sleep

Lie.

 

Pretend it doesn’t exist in that smile

The one you search for

Would never admit the human parts

Stone-faced and assbackwards     

Lie.

 

To those that fall face first into it

Remember when you were that brave

The jump and the air that stung your eyes

Blindness.

 

The feeling of it surrounding you

The takeover of common sense

And accepting it

Blindness.

 

And learning to see again

Praying for second chances in passion

Living with regrets

And touching the ground for the first time

And holding to the shattered glass existence of you.

The then

And now

Rebuild.

 

Stitch, crochet, needle and thread it back together

Walk slowly and breath deeply and cry.

Rebuild.

 

Wait.

For the wind

Not the first gentle breeze of spring

Or the forceful one that foreshadow rain.

 

Just wait.

And keep the one that

Cools you

Carries easy

that is strong

and holds steady

The one that will woo you

just enough for trust

and fall

and Love

and soar.

 

KD